I’ve had to be so firm with myself lately and it’s rather tiring! I can tell I’m letting my mind run away with me – conjuring up all sorts of ‘worst-case’ scenarios about my 3 months in Germany, when I’ll try to find a job. It’s the uncertainty that’s (literally) making me go mad. Everyone around me seems to be so positive that things will work out – and I’m holding on to the fact that God is going before me and He will prepare things for me. It seems though that I’m the ever-doubting Thomas and it’s like I’m wading through molasses.
Where is my faith and where is my positivity?! It’s got to be hiding somewhere?