Have you ever reached that point where you just want to press the Pause button on Life so you can take a moment to catch your breath and take in everything that’s happening around you? Well that’s where I’m at.
This week has been particularly overwhelming and it’s had me feeling like a clown in the middle of a circus – juggling decisions, financial setbacks, friendships, time, work, opinions and judgements – they’re all up in the air in one moment, then back in my hands, then hitting me in the face, or landing on the floor – not a very good clown am I? And in the midst of it all there’s the sense that you just don’t want to burden those closest to you with what’s going on – also because most of the time you just cannot make heads or tails of it.
The day that I leave to go to Berlin is drawing closer and it’s exciting and scary at the same time. Those who matter most in my life are encouraging, excited, full of positivity – those who matter a little less are negative and quick to play on my fears. But it’s ok – I’m learning how to separate the truth from the insignificant lies; and I’m starting to understand the importance of protecting my dreams – no matter where they may take me or how they may play out or what others’ opinions are of them. They’re my dreams and this is my life.