A friend of mine pointed something out to me tonight: I’m living smack-bang in the middle of a dream girls normally have…I’m the wife of a real-life rockstar. I don’t think that ever occurred to me…perhaps because I’ve been so concerned with what that means for me – late nights without my husband at my side; dinners alone; Saturdays spent alone while he’s rehearsing…I’ve focussed completely on the unglamorous part of it all.
Tonight Mani has a gig and it completely infuriates me that I cannot be there (as his number one groupie!), cheering him on, watching his performance with starry eyes, feeling like the most important girl in the crowd of many. But what’s made it easy to get through not being there to share this with him, are the random sms’s I received tonight in which he reminded me that at some point, he’d sing a song for me 🙂 (Yes…romantic, I know!) Whilst many girls merely dream of having someone in their life who can write a song that’s all about them, I actually have that guy! And tonight, he’ll sing the song he wrote with me in mind:
 Long Distance
Verse 1:
Ten Thousand Miles from here
confusing mind that cannot rest
She’s got the strength to rise
The voices, in her head won’t stop
Her heart’s been dragged through the mud
Compassion fills the space inside
The world is between us
Love devours all of our shame
Our souls – groan – for
breakthrough – falling in dismay
It’s all – wrong – when
bureaucracy just takes her away
Verse 2:
3000 days apart
yet somehow we are of one heart
3000 lies will steal
a wounded soul takes time to heal
Chorus:
Long Distance, far apart
she’s left with a bleeding heart
Long distance, anxious mind
where truth is hard to find
Persistance in this trial
hold on for another while
Long distance, in this mess
When hope still carries rest
Bridge:
Oh she cries
When she’s alone
It’s just her and her weaknesses
Oh she’s crazy
My blue-eyed daisy
She will make it through
Verse 3
Her heart’s been dragged through the mud
Compassion fills the space inside
The world is between us
Love devours all of our shame
Our flame proclaims affections
haunting, it’s haunting me
Attachment, close affections and passion
haunting, haunting me.
Yip, indeed, I couldn’t have wished for a better partner in life…I guess I have to be someone’s crazy, blue-eyed daisy! 🙂